3528) i am the exact opposite of a butch woman and always have been. i have always felt like a sensitive faggy boy. but gay men always treated me like a dyke, while lesbians knew i wasn’t into girls and made fun of me for being a “sissy”. i have nothing in common with het women, and het men/hetero sex repels me. i didn’t know trans guys existed til a few yrs ago. i drank myself through the 1990s and 2000s and now am too liver damaged to take T. despite what my boyfriend says i think i ruined my life.
this post is ancient and I don’t know if you’re still reading this, OP, but for what it’s worth, one of my doctors (who has treated thousands of trans people for over 30 years) say that the liver risk is only theoretical, and they’re obliged to mention it in case something does happen and they get sued; but that he’s never had a single trans patient end up with liver failure, and he’s seen thousands. A trans guy I know says that he’s known other trans guys who drink heavily and are on T and are doing perfectly fine, liver-wise, although they might be exceptions. But maybe if you take really good care of your liver and live completely sober, T might still be an option. also, science is advancing really quick, and livers are sometimes replaceable, so… don’t give up hope.
(Source: ftmconfessions, via ftmconfessions)