listening to the Mulan soundtrack is never not-awkward when family members are around.
the excellent adventures of a totally unreal boy.
24. ftm. gay. chinese. singaporean. mostly harmless.
"you will always be a child of two worlds, and fully capable of deciding your own destiny."
- sarek to spock, star trek xi
"no," cried the apple. "don’t eat me!"
and then it dissolved into hapless sobs, for no one heard it, least of all the bipedal creature who proceeded to subject the powerless fruit to vicious bite after vicious bite from gleaming, artificially-whitened teeth that pierced it to its very seeds.
this post is ancient and I don’t know if you’re still reading this, OP, but for what it’s worth, one of my doctors (who has treated thousands of trans people for over 30 years) say that the liver risk is only theoretical, and they’re obliged to mention it in case something does happen and they get sued; but that he’s never had a single trans patient end up with liver failure, and he’s seen thousands. A trans guy I know says that he’s known other trans guys who drink heavily and are on T and are doing perfectly fine, liver-wise, although they might be exceptions. But maybe if you take really good care of your liver and live completely sober, T might still be an option. also, science is advancing really quick, and livers are sometimes replaceable, so… don’t give up hope.